Are you willing?

Are you willing??? How bad do you want it??? These are questions that I have been asked many times over the last few weeks and especially today.
Are you willing to fight and do what it takes to get to the end?
How bad do you want to live in freedom? How bad do you want all the pain and memories to go away?

We have to want it bad enough. We have to stop sitting on our backsides and feel sorry for ourselves and get up and get it. Dang I know how hard it is. I know the injustice we feel. We sometimes think that we have the right to sit and have the world wait at us hand and foot. We have been hard done by. Sheesh, some of us have had the unthinkable done to us.

But we cant change it, we cant take back what has already been done. yeah ya can sit and ask why? Why me? But that aint gonna change anything. Nothing... absoluterly nothing is going to change what has already been done!

BUT ladies... oh, we can so change what we do with it! We can turn that bad into something good. I know many, prolly all of you have heard this before. Im preaching at myself today too. Im in that same place. I will be honest, I wake up off a morning so depressed and want to spend the day in bed. But at the same time, I dont want to keep living like this. I hate it... HATE it.

Its time we get up and start getting places. its time we get up and do something about how we are feeling. How bad do you want it???? Are you willing to fight??? Are you willing to put in the hard work???

It frustrates me... It makes me angry. But dang... I know... I know what its like.

Whos going to run this race with me??? Walk it if you need!! But get up and start moving. Each step is a step forward!!

I prayed to God...

I Prayed To God

I prayed to God,
To listen to me,
Unlike the times before.
I felt at peace.

I prayed to God,
For him to forgive me,
For I had done wrong.
I felt at peace.

I prayed to God,
To take away my pain,
That was inside of me.
I felt at peace.

I prayed to God,
For him to hold me in his arms,
Like a child with her Daddy.
I felt at peace.

I prayed to God,
To fill me with His love,
Unlike I have felt before.
I felt at peace.

I prayed to God,
To give back my joy,
Which I so longed for.
I felt at peace.

I prayed to God,
To ask Him to heal me,
And he is doing that,
I feel at peace.

A helpless sigh

A soul that is lost,
A life that has stopped,
A future that is uncertain.

A face that is pale,
A mouth that is sad,
A cheek that is wet.

A head that is sore,
A mind that is confused,
A long sleepless night.

An unpleasant smell,
A vision to dread,
A girls innocence lost.

A nauseas feeling,
A stomach that is churning,
A body that is scared.

A dream that is shattered,
A never ending cry,
Everything that mattered, but left in a helpless sigh.

The Child

Lord, let me be the child in me,
The free and happy one I want to be.
May I feel the joy of life,
And the love you have for me.
Show me I can run to your arms,
And be embraced in your love.

Lord, I want to be free to dance,
Dance like the little child in me.
To let my hair down and lift my hands,
And shout for the joy of life.
Soar over the clouds and oceans below,
And pick the flowers in the fields below.

Lord, let me be the child in me,
The one that doesn’t want to be scared and all alone.
To feel what I have not felt,
And to love what I know is real.
Show me how to trust, when others have let me down,
And not be afraid of where I will go.

Lord, I want to be free to grow again,
Again to experience the joy of life.
To let you dwell with in me now,
And fill me with Your Spirit and guide me through.
I need somebody to love me,
And make me feel that I am needed.

Lord, help me be the child in me,
The child that longs to be free.
Without a trouble in the word,
And Lord, show me that it is safe.
That I don’t need to hide anymore,
To be the little child in me….